Me, Mum and the Scuba Diver

Dear Noah,

We are reaching a strange stage in our apraxia journey.  Progress is both poignant and a little painful.  You are expressing yourself much more and piecing together descriptions and explanations.  You are also starting to let go of some speech patterns that are so cute and make you seem younger than you are.  Our little boy is growing up.

Noah, age 5. Gone sailing!

Noah, age 5. Gone sailing!

For many months, you have said ‘me’ instead of ‘I’ and I have constantly reminded you to say ‘I’ instead of ‘me’.  “Me want biscuit.”  “Me going outside now.”  Now a few days have gone past and I realise I haven’t corrected you on it once.  ‘I’ is the new ‘me’.  No more,”Me love you, Mummy!”  In fact, I got,”I love you, Mum!”  I’m not sure I’m ready to be ‘Mum’ instead of ‘Mummy’.

Now I stop and marvel every time you explain something you are learning or thinking about.  You were watching a video about scuba divers with Daddy the other day and you were able to tell me all about it.

“Scuba diver has camera on his wetsuit.  Can take photos underwater.  Send to scientists…and police…and news people.”

This is new territory.  The grammar isn’t perfect.  Pronunciation of longer words is difficult.  Yet we can understand so much more.  I can still see you working and concentrating so hard on getting each word out when you’re talking about a more complex topic.  You have to concentrate on the word order and the motor planning of each word.  You think through words that need a consonant sound on the end and add it emphatically.  “The boa-t is in the water.”

It turns out you have been taking in a lot of information and storing it in your mind.  You distinguished that Mummy is a “hoo-man doctor” as opposed to an “animal doctor” when I came to talk to the kids at kindy.  You told me about breathing,”Need air.  Need o-y-gen [oxygen].”  You also gave me the low down on toilet hygiene,”Need to wash hands when I do a poo.  Poo has lots of germs.  Wee has not much germs.”  Good job!  I take a little professional pride in seeing you putting germ theory into action.  You hold way more vocabulary in your mind than you are able to say correctly.  Now that you can sequence many more sounds and syllables, you are giving these words a crack.  Sometimes we have a game of 20 Questions to work out what you mean because sound substitutions mean some words sound like other words eg ‘blue car’ versus ‘gui-tar’.  We have to beg for clues sometimes so we can get the context.  We often get berated with,”No! Not talking ‘bout …..  Talking ‘bout ……”  We just have to make a joke about our ears not working properly and work it out.

We are so proud of the progress you are making, Noah.  I can’t believe your first sentence was 18 months ago.  What a long way you’ve come!  I am happy to be hearing your voice, not the voice I used to dream about, but your voice.  I love your stories and joining in your imaginary games.

Love Mummy

PS. Below I have included a video of Noah telling me about the helicopter he is making.  I can understand most of what he says.  He talks about the rotors and how it makes the helicopter fly, how the scuba diver can go out the back door to swim in to the ocean for his mission and how the submarine can take photos and go down to look at a pirate ship that sunk long ago.   We realise Noah’s speech is difficult to understand if you are not used to hearing it.  We celebrate each little gain he makes.  Enjoy!

Noah with his finished lego helicopter

Noah with his finished lego helicopter